Random Blog?

Um, to be completely honest im not a very open person, in fact i stay as closed as possible and its hard for me to tell whoever is reading this everything about me, stuff that i don't discuss with my closest of friends.I put up this front like i have everything under control and that im as hard as rock, nothing can hurt me. I mean i can argue for scotland but then it doesnt mean that i dont hurt. So when i say i cant stand my dad and i wouldnt bother if he moved to australia but honestly it would hurt, it would probably hurt more because i know that i can always contact him when he is just in edinburgh and then if i ever needed him he would be there.I go to high school, and im in 3rd year it was absolutley terrible at the start because my friends werent in most of my classes and it was like starting a fresh, but having to still live with the same old me. I'm different at school, like i think i just failed as soon as i got there and to be honest im never myself. And people dont get that they have this image of me, of who i portray myself to be when thats not me atall, and i wish i could break free from that but three year on its too late. So i wish i could turn back the clock and make the right decisions and change who i have become..